no weigh in today

couldn't weigh in this morning because i didn't go to sleep, really want to know how much i weigh. been 6 days with out food. so far today i've had water, skimmed milk and coffee.

 

i have a horrible thought that keeps going around in my head, my so called best friend was cruel to me, he let me down, hurt me when i needed him most. i miss him already. i will always miss him. but i can never be friends with him again. i can never even see or speak or communicate with him again. when he sent me that text he destroyed our friendship. he broke my trust. he betrayed everything i ever told him. there is no going back. it is over. i have lost my best friend. my soul mate. the one person i could say anything and everything to. the one person i could totally be myself with.

 

that's what hurts the most.

 

why did you do it Andy?

 

stay strong, starve on

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Comments (28)

  1. noahbody

    Do you know that when a body is starved it’s metabolism slows down and burns fewer calories?
    I am sorry for your situation with Andy. Myself, I always figure that if a person means enough to me I can find a way to understand and forgive and put up with anything to keep them in my life.

    April 12, 2015
    1. lostgirl28

      i’ve studied sports science so ironically yes, i know all about it, makes it harder for me to understand why i do it. usually i’m the same as you, i care and forgive way too much, but he’s done too much, there’s 2 more years of being let down by him before this. all i’ve done is love and care for him. some of the stuff thats happened has been huge, but this, to me is the worst, he knew how much it would hurt me, and did it any way

      April 12, 2015
      1. wirelessguru1

        Maybe you do it because you have very low self esteem!

        April 12, 2015
        1. lostgirl28

          yeah i do, but ithought he understood that. he promised support and for the first time in my life i really believed it

          April 12, 2015
          1. wirelessguru1

            Obviously he did not understand and was taking advantage of you…

            April 12, 2015
            1. lostgirl28

              i know, that hurts more than anything else. i believed

              April 12, 2015
  2. lostgirl28

    wow, so judgemental, good luck in your life

    April 12, 2015
  3. lostgirl28

    lol, i do not fit the criteria for anorexia atm as my bmi is too high, i would be classified as EDNOS, which is very easy to hide from real people, i come here to vent, not for attention, trying reading some of my blogs before you even try to analyse me, and btw, i’m live in britain, fact check before you slag lol

    April 12, 2015
  4. lostgirl28

    and by the way, i do what i do not so people feel sorry for me, that’s a joke, i just do it

    April 12, 2015
    1. lostgirl28

      and from the PM i’ve just sent you you’ll know that i get that, but be careful, some people could be hurt

      April 12, 2015
      1. lostgirl28

        yet here you are reading my blog, seems you do not like yourself as you are punishing yourself with the torture of my posts and comments, i wonder why? are you ok? do you need help?

        April 12, 2015
      2. lostgirl28

        seriously, should we be calling help for you? i mean, i know i’m fucked up, but i don’t read and overly comment on peoples posts that i want nothing to do with, that’s self loathing and hate at a whole new level, maybe it’s really you silently screaming for help, but you feel no-one can help you because others, like me can execute our thoughts more eloquently than you? i’ve read your posts, there seems to be nothing really there behind the username, but maybe i’m wrong…

        April 12, 2015
      3. lostgirl28

        have you hidden yourself away again? never mind, hope you come out and play (offspring lol) another day

        April 12, 2015
      4. lostgirl28

        lol that shows you know nothing about me, i’ve never hung out with the “popular” people, i’ve always related to the freaks and weirdos, i just quoted old school offspring

        April 13, 2015
  5. lostgirl28

    also, you’ve just stated that people with a mental disorder are looking for attention, i think you’ve shown your true self far more than you’ve shown mine

    April 12, 2015
    1. lostgirl28

      i’ve just sent you a private message

      April 12, 2015
      1. lostgirl28

        thats totally cool with me, on my first post on thoughts the first comment told me to kill myself, i told him i thrive on comments like that, we ended up friends on here

        April 12, 2015
      2. lostgirl28

        btw if you need an eating disorder punch bag on here please feel free to use me rather than some of the other girls because trust me, you can’t hurt me

        April 12, 2015
  6. lostgirl28

    said what to me? please try to keep up with the conversation that you instigated, otherwise this is just tiresome

    April 13, 2015
    1. lostgirl28

      have you?

      April 13, 2015
  7. lostgirl28

    besides, you haven’t answered my question, do you need some emergency mental health attention?

    April 13, 2015
    1. wirelessguru1

      Please note that the legendary22 demon is completely nuts!

      April 13, 2015
      1. wirelessguru1

        No, you did!

        April 13, 2015
        1. wirelessguru1

          WTF!?

          April 13, 2015