no food

4 days now without any real food, feeling ok,lets see if i can make it a whole week :)

 

stay strong, starve on

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Comments (103)

  1. wirelessguru1

    WTF!?

    April 10, 2015
    1. lostgirl28

      don’t act dumb darling, you know what i’m about, lets have a better response

      April 10, 2015
      1. wirelessguru1

        Yup, I’m sure that you can offer us a much better response than that!

        April 10, 2015
        1. lostgirl28

          do me a favour, read every post of mine from begining to end, see how i’ve hurt, see how i’ve tried and see how i’ve been hurt again, then ask me if i’m wrong for putting one foot in front of the other in the only way i know how

          April 10, 2015
          1. wirelessguru1

            No food is not an answer.
            Look, a good diet and exercise is a much better solution regardless of the hurt…

            April 10, 2015
            1. lostgirl28

              read my posts, no food is the only solution for me

              April 10, 2015
            2. wirelessguru1

              So why is that?

              April 10, 2015
            3. lostgirl28

              it makes me clean, it takes the pain away and stops the loneliness

              April 10, 2015
            4. wirelessguru1

              So you have pain when you eat a good diet and exercise!?

              April 10, 2015
            5. lostgirl28

              seriously read all my posts, don’t judge my actions on one post

              April 10, 2015
            6. wirelessguru1

              Look, I judge your actions based on your reactions to Me.
              That’s how this works…

              April 10, 2015
            7. lostgirl28

              and yes, i have emotional pain when i’m being “healthy” whatever that is

              April 10, 2015
            8. lostgirl28

              i am in pain, not eating takes it away, it takes everything away

              April 10, 2015
            9. wirelessguru1

              OK, then let us work on a solution for that.
              Please describe your pain when you eat good and are “healthy”?

              April 10, 2015
            10. lostgirl28

              i count the calories, everything is split in to good and bad food, when i eat i feel i don’t deserve it, i see my fingers and thighs expanding, i feel disgusting

              April 10, 2015
            11. wirelessguru1

              Why are you counting the calories?
              ..and exactly how do you see your fingers and thighs expanding?
              Also why do you feel disgusting?
              Did someone call you fat when you were a little girl?

              April 10, 2015
    2. raining_roses

      Wireless, you may need to do some more of your research before you start trying to counsel an anorexic. You won’t win this one.

      April 10, 2015
      1. wirelessguru1

        raining_roses please mind your own business…

        April 10, 2015
        1. raining_roses

          Lol. It’s a public forum. What you write in a public avenue is everyone’s business.

          April 10, 2015
          1. wirelessguru1

            So what do you want then?
            Why did you come here to this thread!?

            April 10, 2015
  2. wirelessguru1

    So are you telling Me that you immediately get into emotional pain when you eat anything!?
    Please describe that emotional pain?

    April 10, 2015
    1. lostgirl28

      since i was 14 i haven’t been able to eat a meal without these thoughts, i’m 33 now, when i give in to the thoughts of starving everything calms down, i focus, i’m strong, i have a goal, everything bad goes away because there’s no energy left in me to be in pain

      April 10, 2015
      1. wirelessguru1

        Why 14!?
        Did someone call you fat at that age!?
        Also, I can see that you can focus and are strong since you are talking to Me here…

        April 10, 2015
    2. lostgirl28

      i’ve been bullied, abused, raped and beaten. calories are numbers, they don’t lie, i can control them, i see myself as fat when i weigh 98lbs the mirror tells me

      April 10, 2015
      1. wirelessguru1

        So you had a lot of abuse and never recovered from that…
        Calories are numbers but if the body still needs them…
        Also, if the mirror (your image) is telling you that you are fat, then stop looking at the mirror for a month and see what happens…

        April 10, 2015
        1. lostgirl28

          i never look in the mirror, i’m never naked, not even when i’m alone at home. i shower, dry with my towel around me, drop the towel and dress immediately, never looking, but reflections are everywhere, and i can’t help but see

          April 10, 2015
          1. wirelessguru1

            Wait a second, so if you never look in the mirror then how come the mirror tells you that you are fat!?
            Like what reflections are those now?
            Don’t lie to Me!

            April 10, 2015
            1. lostgirl28

              when i catch i glimpse, shop windows, i hate them, try not to notice, then you see your reflection

              April 10, 2015
            2. wirelessguru1

              OK, I see, so any light reflection scares you!
              So essentially you are afraid of your own reflection.
              BTW, are you also afraid of your own shadow!?

              April 10, 2015
            3. lostgirl28

              i’m terrified of my own shadow, i jump all the time

              April 10, 2015
            4. wirelessguru1

              So what scares you more, your light reflection or your shadow?

              April 10, 2015
            5. lostgirl28

              my light reflection, that tortures me, my shadow just makes me jump

              April 10, 2015
            6. wirelessguru1

              So does this mean that you are more afraid of the light (reflection) than the dark (shadow)?
              I want to make really sure of this!!!

              April 10, 2015
            7. lostgirl28

              light reflection, it’s more real, shadows can really be distorted

              April 10, 2015
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            9. wirelessguru1

              Actually light reflection can also be distorted…
              (many mirrors do distort the images)

              April 10, 2015
            10. lostgirl28

              not as much as my mind distorts them

              April 10, 2015
            11. wirelessguru1

              I fully agree.
              So the real problem is your mind program. As such we will have to reprogram it…
              +1 (Neo)

              April 10, 2015
            12. lostgirl28

              it needs more than reprogramming

              April 10, 2015
            13. wirelessguru1

              True. You also need some loving…

              April 10, 2015
        2. lostgirl28

          i can’t do love anymore

          April 10, 2015
          1. wirelessguru1

            So what can you do?

            April 10, 2015
            1. lostgirl28

              survive for now

              April 10, 2015
            2. wirelessguru1

              Well, that’s a good start.
              Your survival instinct seems to be doing fine then…

              April 10, 2015
            3. lostgirl28

              i told you, i’m a mother, i survive for my son, not for myself

              April 10, 2015
            4. wirelessguru1

              How old is your son?

              April 10, 2015
            5. lostgirl28

              17

              April 10, 2015
  3. lostgirl28

    the only reason i seem strong is because i have to be, i’m not, i’m weak, but i have to keep my head above water for now

    April 10, 2015
    1. wirelessguru1

      No you are definitely not weak at all. If you were weak minded then you would have already blocked Me and stopped talking to Me…

      April 10, 2015
  4. lostgirl28

    you can’t fix me with your wise words, i am intelligent, i know right from wrong, but when it’s your own mind leading you down a certain path, a path without any emotional pain, it’s impossible to resist

    April 10, 2015
    1. wirelessguru1

      Well, I AM a lot more intelligent than you, so work with Me for now…

      April 10, 2015
      1. lostgirl28

        i want out of this life, but i am trapped, you can’t help me

        April 10, 2015
        1. wirelessguru1

          So where do you want to go then?

          April 10, 2015
        2. wirelessguru1

          ..and why are you pushing Me away now?

          April 10, 2015
          1. lostgirl28

            i’m not pushing you away, i want to float in the sky and be free and weightless from the burden of this earth

            April 10, 2015
            1. wirelessguru1

              So what happens if you see your own reflection when you are floating around in the sky and free from the weight!?

              April 10, 2015
          2. lostgirl28

            i’ll be as skinny as i can be and i’ll be dead, it’ll all be alright then

            April 10, 2015
            1. wirelessguru1

              Like how do you know that it will be alright!?

              April 10, 2015
          3. lostgirl28

            because it’ll be over

            April 10, 2015
            1. wirelessguru1

              How do you know that it will be over!?

              April 10, 2015
            2. wirelessguru1

              You claim to be a lost girl so you really don’t know that it will be over (since you are lost)!

              April 10, 2015
          4. lostgirl28

            i have to rely on it being over, the only thing thing that keeps being going is the thought that one day it will be over

            April 10, 2015
            1. wirelessguru1

              That sounds very much contradictory!
              Please read it again!!!

              April 10, 2015
          5. lostgirl28

            i’ve been lost for a long time, i can’t find myself in this world

            April 10, 2015
            1. wirelessguru1

              Maybe you are looking in the wrong places and as such only seeing distorted images!

              April 10, 2015
          6. lostgirl28

            i’m a mother, i can’t go yet, one day i’ll be free to go

            April 10, 2015
            1. wirelessguru1

              Well, and eventually, we all go some day…

              April 10, 2015
          7. lostgirl28

            i long for it

            April 10, 2015
            1. wirelessguru1

              Why?

              April 10, 2015
          8. lostgirl28

            because i want the pain to go away

            April 10, 2015
            1. wirelessguru1

              The pain only goes away when you heal your soul.

              April 10, 2015
          9. lostgirl28

            every day is just a distraction

            April 10, 2015
            1. wirelessguru1

              Distraction from what?

              April 10, 2015
          10. lostgirl28

            my soul can’t be healed, some people are broken

            April 10, 2015
            1. wirelessguru1

              How do you know that?
              Anything broken can be fixed…

              April 10, 2015
          11. lostgirl28

            the pain, fill the days, get through the nights

            April 10, 2015
            1. wirelessguru1

              Describe this pain?

              April 10, 2015
          12. lostgirl28

            i believe that, with anything, anyone else, but it’s been too much

            April 10, 2015
            1. wirelessguru1

              Too much does not describe it…

              April 10, 2015
          13. lostgirl28

            it’s crushing, a complete feeling of worthlessness and pointlessness

            April 10, 2015
            1. wirelessguru1

              Regardless, life is still a game…even if you feel it is worthless and pointless…

              April 10, 2015
          14. lostgirl28

            it’s obvious i don’t know the rules of the game and i have no interest in learning them, i can’t play

            April 10, 2015
            1. wirelessguru1

              Then make your own rules…

              April 10, 2015
            2. wirelessguru1

              Take charge of your own life from now on…

              April 10, 2015
          15. lostgirl28

            thats what i am doing, this gives me control and no-one can take it away

            April 10, 2015
            1. wirelessguru1

              But your body still needs the calories…

              April 10, 2015
          16. lostgirl28

            i will get in to a routine of 500 cals a day, i know i can get by on that

            April 10, 2015
  5. wirelessguru1

    BTW, what happens at the end of the week?

    April 10, 2015
    1. lostgirl28

      it all starts again

      April 10, 2015
      1. wirelessguru1

        So you are stuck in a vicious cycle.
        Look, it is time to brake that vicious cycle now.

        April 10, 2015
        1. lostgirl28

          no, it’s time to fall in to it, let it take over, take focus, as horrible as it may sound to you, it sounds great to me

          April 10, 2015
          1. wirelessguru1

            Really! So you do enjoy being stuck in such a vicious cycle!?

            April 10, 2015
            1. lostgirl28

              when it gives me control, bones and a feeling of emptiness, yes

              April 10, 2015
            2. wirelessguru1

              Why do you like to feel empty?

              April 10, 2015
          2. wirelessguru1

            Look, based on your posts here (with all the pain, etc) it sounds like you really don’t so what gives!?

            April 10, 2015
            1. lostgirl28

              starving takes the pain away

              April 10, 2015
            2. lostgirl28

              i’m going to try and sleep now, thanks for trying

              April 10, 2015
            3. wirelessguru1

              So to you starving and emptiness = no pain!

              April 10, 2015
            4. lostgirl28

              yeah, physically it hurts, but that takes away the inner pain

              April 10, 2015
            5. wirelessguru1

              So your inner pain needs some extra healing.
              We will work on that while you sleep…
              +1 (Neo)

              April 10, 2015
        2. lostgirl28

          it makes me feel pure, takes all the bad things that have happened away

          April 10, 2015
          1. wirelessguru1

            Well, in a very twisted way that actually makes some sense…

            April 10, 2015
  6. wirelessguru1

    Sleep will be good for you. I’m going to the gym now to workout…

    April 10, 2015
    1. lostgirl28

      have a good workout, ironically i did sports science at college, if you need any tips i have all the answers

      April 10, 2015