i'm back!

hi everyone, i got back from my weekend away with my son yesterday, we had a great time! on friday i weighed in at 7st 9.4 lbs, i was pleased with that, then on saturday i had gone up to 7st 10.4 lbs, sunday i was back to 7st 9.4 lbs, monday 7st 10.4...

depressed

so i haven't lost any weight, none at all! i've stuck to 500 calories a day and exercised but i haven't lost anything for two days, i'm so frustrated. today i've eaten 502 calories, done an hour of cardio and 300 stomach crunches, but i bet i won't...

my new mini goal

so today i weighed in at 7st 10 lbs exactly (108 lbs), i'm happy with that, i've eaten 458 calories, done an hour of cardio and 300 stomach crunches. i went shopping today and tried on a pair of uk size 4 jeans (american size 0) and they nearly fitted!...

real v fantasy

so i haven't weighed myself today after drinking sooo much last night! i've eaten 484 calories, i've decided not to do my workout this evening as i'm knackered and.....i kind of got a workout this after noon if you know what i mean!? :) the real...

tonight :(

so today i weighed in at 7st 10.6 lbs :) happy with that, i've eaten 484 calories in food, i did go over on my 300 calorie limit with alcohol, but only by a bit, total calories for the day 898, so not too bad, and i did half an hour of weights and 300...

just a quickie

so today, i weighed the same,7st 11.6 lbs (109.6 lbs), a bit disappointed with that but i'm still plowing on. i've eaten 484 calories today, done one hour of cardio and 290 stomach crunches. i'm feeling sooo exhausted at the moment! i just want to get...

scared i won't stop

so today i weighed in at 7st 11.6 lbs ( 109.6 lbs), i've eaten 500 calories exactly, done half an hour on weights and 280 stomach crunches, i spent the whole day at a theme park as well so i am shattered! i'm starting to worry that i won't be...

i hit my mini goal!!!

that's right, today i weighed in at 7st 12lbs! (110lbs) which is great, i'm really pleased, especially as i hadn't had a BM for two days! i have now, the laxatives worked....a little too well, but at least i don't feel bloated any more! so today...

worried about tomorrow

so today has gone well, i weigh 7st 12.6 lbs (110.6 lbs) which is lower, though only by a tiny bit! i've eaten 484 calories, done my one hour hip hop dance class, done half an hour of weights (the second set of reps  i done at the highest level....6!...

today i had a thought

today i weigh 7st 12.8 lbs! (110.8 lbs) that made me happy, i wasn't expecting to lose more weight after such a good streak! however i haven't done BM today so things aren't looking good for tomorrow :( i've been good with my food, i've eaten 502...

still going down

i only lost 0.2 of a pound but at least it's still down! today i weigh 7st 13.6 lbs (111.6 lbs) and i've been really good today, i have eaten 501 calories, done an hour of cardio and 240 stomach crunches, plus, i made fairy cakes with my son today,...

so happy!!!

so i weighed myself this morning.....7st 13.8 lbs!!! (111.8 lbs), i know it's only just under 8 stone but i haven't seen 7 stone anything on my scales since i was 19! i'm so happy, i thought it would be days until i saw that number, it feels great. i...

today

i weighed in at 8st 1lb (113lbs) again today, not surprising as i didn't have a BM yesterday, the laxative worked, i've had a decent one today. i ended up only taking one last night cos i got scared of what two might do as i haven't taken them for so...

dreading tomorrow

so i've been really good today, i've eaten 499 calories, just done my weights plus 210 stomach crunches. however, i haven't had a BM all day :( so tomorrows weigh in is likely to be disappointing, i might of even gained!, i don't know why i...

happy!

weight today 8st 1lb! (113lbs) another pound off! needless to say i'm so happy right now, only 3lbs to go until i hit my mini goal, and i've got over a week to do it in! i can't wait to see 7 stone something on my scales, that will be great, i've not...

cold and hungry

i've just done my workout, one hour of cardio followed by 200 stomach crunches, luckily my headache has finally gone! that was brutal. i've been really cold this evening, even now after my workout, still i suppose it's good, the colder you are the more...

great day!

i weighed myself this morning, 8st 2lbs! (114lbs!) i'm so happy! 3lbs lost over night, it's about time! i've eaten about 350 calories so far today, not sure if i'm going to eat much more, got to do an hour of cardio later, i might have something after...

i'm doing well

i've stuck to my 500 calorie a day limit, been to hip hop dance class, done 30 minutes of weights and 180 stomach crunches. i hope i've done enough to lose some weight, i weighed myself today, 8st 5lbs!!! i knew i would be punished for my binge but...

today

today has gone well, i've stuck to my plan and eaten about 500 calories which is amazing as i've been at a theme park all day surrounded by greasy food! i haven't weighed myself yet, i'm too scared to after my binge, maybe i will tomorrow...

this isn't normal

i've just read about belle, who has died from anorexia. it breaks my heart. she was so young. it scares me. i'm taller than she was and in the past i have weighed less, my goal weight is less than the weight she died at. but i'm not sure that even this...

fail

that's right, i failed, after gaining again! 8st 3.8lbs!?? how? i decided to just eat 500 calories a day, went to a birthday party last night and was forced to eat, so when i got home thought fuck it and binged!!! i'm so angry with myself! ...

i got my ana bracelet!

yes, i finally found one that i love! i bought it today and i'm wearing it! i've eaten quite a bit today, i need to jump start my body, i've had 928 calories, i'll eat about the same tomorrow, then i'll cut down again on saturday. i've done my...

how?

i'm still 8st 3.4lbs! (115.4lbs) how? i know i had that binge on monday night but i've only eaten about 200 calories a day since then, it doesn't make sense. it's a good job that i planned to eat today or i would have binged any way, but instead i'm...

doing well

today's has gone well, i weighed myself and i've gained 0.4lbs from my binge on monday night, so now i weigh 8st 3.4lbs (115.4lbs) but i didn't let it get me down, i've stuck to my punishment and eaten half a glass of milk, some fruit, a carrot with...

today

thanks for all the kind comments about my blog last night and sorry it was so depressing! i just really needed to get those things out, some of them i have never told anyone and i thought i never would. it felt really good to finally say it all.  ...