alone at last

told the man i love i can't be just friends with him anymore. asked him to let me go if he doesn't love me. it's been torture recently. everytime i've seen him it's been hard. i never want him to go, i want him to stay with me, to hold me, to make me...

trapped

i can't move on, i can't let go. i am stuck right in the middle of my own despair. moods are wild and i can't control them. i long for control, but i can't find any at the moment. i need it though, any type of control. i feel i am slipping. i am...