update

i'm still around the 9st mark, not been having major binges which is good! trying to stick to 800 calories a day and doing an hour on my elliptical strider- i love it soo much, it makes me sweat! sooo, i started therapy. it's getting hard. on my...

no more

i can't stand being so fat. i've become a person that i hate, complaining about my weight but not really doing anything about it. it's so simple to lose weight. eat less, move more. why haven't i done it. got to stop complaining. got to do something...

thursday 6th january

today i weigh 9st 2.4lbs (128.4lbs), i need to keep this weight loss up! yesterday i ate 400 calories, today i've eaten 399 and i done 25 minutes of cardio on my new elliptical strider, i'm going to add another 5 minutes a day until i'm doing one...

wednesday 5th january

why can't i get him out of my head!? it's driving me nuts, ok, so i was stupid enough to fall in love, but it's been over for months and i still think about him all the time. i'm a freak, he knows i'm a freak, how could i be so certain about him? it...

tuesday 4th january

i weighed in today, 9st 7lbs (133lbs) :( thats bad, i've gained 7lbs over christmas, but it all stops NOW. today i've eaten 400 calories, exercise has got to start tomorrow, from now until 21st february i won't eat more that 500 calories a day. i hope...

monday 3rd january

i've decided i'm not pregnant, if i was there's no way i still am after all the blood i've lost over the past few days :( the bleeding seems to be stopping now. i don't really know how to feel about it. i should be pleased that i'm not pregnant. i...

sunday 2nd january

so it's been a while. i started eating more normally over christmas, not because i think it's a good excuse, but because i was convinced i was pregnant. to be honest i still think i am. i have no proof. i haven't missed a single period and i've done...